Coffee

So my track record with coffee this week hasn't been the greatest. I've been getting up earlier and going into school, and it is definitely taking some getting used to. Yesterday I made the coffee and then proceeded to walk out the door without it. Today I got the coffee and water in, turned on the coffee maker, turned my back, and then realized I had forgotten to put a cup underneath it. So hopefully tomorrow will go better.

Musing #564

It occurred to me today that the Lord knows which circumstances we are going to struggle with long before He brings them into our lives. Knowing fully how we will react, He still allows the thing to place in order to do some work in us.

I personally find comfort in that--knowing that He already knows how I'm going to react to a certain situation and that in the midst of it He has my best interests at heart. Especially because there is no doubt that I am in a struggle spot right now, in a couple of ways. But I do need to just continue seeking His face in the midst of it.

Verse that stuck out to me today was "lean not on your own understanding." So yeah...that's about where I am.

The Lord Throws a Curveball

As I was praying this morning, the Lord directed me towards Psalm 37:3-7--a passage that He has spoken to me through many years ago in college.

"Trust in the Lord and do good;"
I have a hard time getting past the trust in the Lord part, especially trusting that the Lord has an awesome plan for my life and trusting that He has the deepest desires of my hand firm in the palm of His hand--that He's not out to just dangle something in front of my eyes and then snatch it away, as if He is playing a game with me.

"dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture."
I am throughly blessed in this area as I have been dwelling where He has planted me. Can't forget the summer right after I graduated college and was volunteering at Basilea, and how He spoke to me that I was supposed to go back to Rochester and teach there. And seeing what has happened in the five years since He told me that has been awesome. Granted it has held its share of struggles, but I still wouldn't change it (or at least much of it).

"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."
And this is where I stumble. Does He really want to give me the desires of my heart? Not the fleeting, surfacy ones of my own creation, but the deep seated desires that I believe are from Him--the ones I've tried to pray away over the past seven years and has not happened. The scary part is that now, as that desire grows stronger, what will happen? It may seem a silly question to ask, unless you are the person who has dared to hope that someday this desire will come true, but has also contemplated the possibilities of it not coming to pass. And to finally see a faint glimmer of it possibly happening leaves me wondering what the Lord is doing with me. Lord have mercy!

Svelt vs. Smelt

So after 6 hours of sleep I drove from Buffalo to Rochester to Grandma sit today. At the dinner table tonight:

Grandma: "If your mother quit having ice cream every night, she'd be nice and svelt."
Me: "What's svelt?"
Grandma: "Svelt, you don't know what svelt is?"
Me: "No, I've never heard of it before."
Grandma: "But you're a college student, you should know that."
Me: "Well, what is it?"
Grandma: "slim and trim"
Dad: "Yeah, isn't that the same thing as smelt?"
Mom: "No, that's a fish."

Me: "Wow! I'm going to have to put that on my blog."
Grandma: "You mean on the intercom?"
Dad: "No, on the internet!"

ahh, good times at the dinner table!

A Wonderful Week Off!

Yesterday began my wonderful week off. Today's exciting event included sleeping in until 10 a.m., lounging around and reading all day, and staying in my pajamas until 5 p.m. Boy was it exciting! My main goal this week is to relax and get some sleep, with a possible trip to Buffalo on Friday. That's about all for now!

The Service

Sometimes I really want to update my blog, but I can't find the words to make it sound decent. leading worship went well today, thanks to the Lord's intervention. I really thought I was in for when I woke up congested this morning, but praise the Lord because He made it sufficient and people were blessed by it. So that is a huge praise! I guess the best word to describe the service today is bittersweet.

a few of us stayed back to help get set up for the reception-- it was also a real blessing just work "behind the scenes." Serving people as they were coming through the food line was also a form of ministry as you get to interact with each person. And the children who were there had the best manners I've ever seen kids have. "please, thank you, yes ma'am and no ma'am"

After everything was said and done I went back home and crashed for about an hour and then went over to visit a family of friends from church. I has a neat story to tell about my time there today, but it will have to wait because I'm going to bed. So have a good night!

Tomorrow

Even though it's way too late (11:55), I wanted to write a quick post. Tomorrow is the funeral for the friendly teaching assistant's aunt and I'm leading worship for the service. It is exciting in the sense of leading worship puts me in a position where I've got to completely trust the Lord to take care of my inadequacies and make it sound decent. I guess my mental image would be that of a tightrope walker. So I pray that it would go well, people would be blessed, and that He would be glorified. Amen!

Done!

I'm done with music history! Woohoo! I just got home from taking the final and it went ok--a huge blessing considering the lack of time I had to study. So--Praise the Lord!

Package...

I got a package in the mail from Lydee today--a very excited event as I never get packages. As I am opening it (with a rather excited anticipation), I suddenly saw the brown spine of a library book, and low and behold, it was the Hugh Orr Soprano Recorder book we got out of Sibley--a book I'd rather not see again as it promotes the playing of high G's and A's on a soprano recorder, a dangerous endeavor for all those involved. Thanks for the package Lydee. It gave me quite a chuckle!